Immaculate Radiance

Let's begin with looking at the Google definition of success: Success is a very broad concept. What the fuck is success? What is success for you? What is success for others? What is your definition of a successful you? What is other people's definitions of a successful you? These are some of the questions I sometimes ponder about, especially the last two questions. What is my definition of a successful me? What is other people's definition of a successful me?  My definition of a successful me is someone who doesn't invest into the biases and prejudices any form of mainstream media promote. I would have the courage to follow my heart, because it takes a whole load of courage to follow your heart, and do what actually makes me excited. It sounds campy, but it's true. I need to do what makes me excited in order to live an extraordinary life. I will be able to lead a fulfilling life outside of my career (fulfilling in my own terms, peaceful...

Note: This blog post in not entirely finished but I didn't get much time to work on it, but what I can do is give you all the first paragraph I have written which will serve as a preview of this project. I know it's not perfect, but it's all I have for now. I hope you guys are excited to find out which temple I am talking about.  Much Love ;)  Yup, you read that right? This temple literally reminded me to dream again because I have put that on the back burner for so long. Why? To be honest, it's because life happened and I have been experiencing a level of darkness I never knew was possible and I still haven't gotten out of it. One reason is because as much as I love my my parents, I feel they are still in that negative, low-vibe draining conversation. My mom has relapsed into her mental illness and it is often very, very, VERY heartbreaking. I often feel like my soul has been ripped out of my body and shattered. Basically, I often feel dead. Just writing out tho...

Hey y'all. Ya girl is back, and feeling a lot better. I know the last blog post I expressed how I was going through a lot of intense negative emotions with even writing it. Boy, was that something?  I get where I was coming from and it is super, super valid, but in this blog post I want it to be more about possibility and on more positive aspects of this topic. This is not about whether or not Eesha Rebba will become the next big world superstar. Yes, I just said that, and fam, it feels so damn good. Anyway, it's not about how successful Eesha will be. My existence does not depend on that because it's way out of my control and it's unhealthy to do something like that. I just want to take into mind what can open up not just for Eesha, but for the our communities. At least, what can Eesha's current success open windows to. So let's just make this blog a wonderful fairy tale like space.............an empty canvas where anything is possible. Are y...

The title says it all: I've just been discovering some real cool music on the Internet lately. It's pretty cool. So many cool vibes emanating from these songs. Some of these songs have been out for a while and I am just discovering them now. Some are more recent. A lot of them are stuff you don't really hear on mainstream radio channels. I mean, there are also some real cool stuff on the radio nowadays as well. Like Zayn Malik's new album, Icarus Falls, which I want to finish listening to. Zayn's first album, Mind of Mine was such a masterpiece and his musicality outside of One Direction is something I really resonate with (no shade to 1D). I particularly love it when he adds Desi elements to some of his songs. It makes me so proud of the musical styles from my culture. Also guys, remember, Zayn is Desi as well. I look forward to new music from him. Anyway, if anybody has listened to the whole album, let me know what you thought about it. Listening to really stu...

NOTE: THIS BLOG POST IS NOT INTENDED TO DISRESPECT THE MAKERS OF FIDAA, ITS CAST MEMBERS, OR FANS. THIS IS JUST SOMETHING THAT I HAVE NOTICED AND HAS BEEN IN MY HEART EVER SINCE I HEARD ABOUT THIS MOVIE AND THE LEAD ACTRESS. I AM IN NO AWAY AN EXPERT ON THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY OR THE TELUGU FILM INDUSTRY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT EXACTLY THE PROCESS TOWARDS MAKING FILMS IS LIKE. THIS BLOG POST IS SOMETHING I HAVE WRITTEN AS AN AUDIENCE MEMBER AND HOW I PROCESSED THE FILM. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THIS BLOG POST AS PROFESSIONAL COMMENTARY, BECAUSE AGAIN I AM NO PROFESSIONAL. I JUST HOPE PEOPLE WHO READ THIS BLOG POST CAN RESONATE WITH WHAT I SAY OR AT LEAST UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM COMING FROM. IF THERE IS ANYTHING I HAD COULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY OR ANYTHING I HAVE MISSED, PLEASE LET ME KNOW IN THE COMMENTS BELOW. PEACEFUL AND CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS MUCH APPRECIATED. MUCH LOVE <3 No, seriously. I mean it. This needs to be talked about. I mean I know I'm a year late, but let'...

This is something that I have had to deal with for most of my life. Whether it be in school, parties, boujee social events, weddings etc, often times I felt the need to impress that particular king or queen that ruled whatever scene I was in. It was not a pleasant ride. It came with heartbreak, disappointment, and rejection. I never felt like an equal to these kings and queens. Whenever I want to talk about something that I have been going through most of my life, I often don't know where to start. My self esteem decreased as I got older. Especially after I came back from India after 3 years of living with my grandparents and entered the second grade, that's when I really started to feel these new feelings called "being left out", "feeling like shit" , "being the weakest link in he room" (well I have left that even before I entered the second grade). But you get the point, it was a culmination of new emotions that I never experienced and nev...